Speaking of quality time, today, I had an invite from Trenton to go outside and help him fight off some imaginary pokemon characters! :) Needless to say, after about 20 minutes of fighting these creatures off with our little foam swords, and it being 90 degrees outside, we were wore out and ready to come back inside and be thankful for air conditioning! But I must say, we had a lot more fun out there than I had first imagined. I dont quite know my pokemon characters too well so when Trenton is asking me what I think about them almost all of the time, every now and then I may get a lucky guess and get the character right! Haha! But once I got out there today, and got into fight mode, I had a blast! In the end, I looked over at Trenton, and as he was hiding behind the big curly-Q slide on his play gym, I got tickled at the thought of wondering which of us was having more fun and who was into it more as I sat scrunched down behind the barrier wall by the garage with my eyes peeled looking for Palkia! Days like today, are the one's I live for!
Not only does the summer time chill me out by not having to be on such a strict schedule all of the time and allowing me to be the spontaneous person I am, I have noticed a huge difference in how Trenton has been acting also. It's almost as if his free spirit is back! Those last 2 months of school just seemed to drain him and make him so negative about going... He truly was ready to be out for summer!..Trust me, I heard it every single morning on the way to school "mama, I just cant wait until summer! I am tired of going to school! I wish you never signed me up for it!" yes, my child thinks that school is like signing him up for baseball or basketball! haha! Oh me, the things he comes up with! You gotta love him! And while he has been in such good spirits lately, he is still 8 and he still has his moments here and there. And speaking of which, I just have to let you in on two things that happened with him that was pitiful but sweet at the same time!
First, the other day, Trenton had a moment to where he just absolutely was not wanting to go to the store with me. He just was not having it! What can I say? He's your typical boy... hates shopping! He even says its for girls and not boys when he is trying to convince me of reasons he should not have to go. His little spell lasted for about 30 minutes and afterwards, I had decided to wait because a big storm was rolling in. Well, as the tv's started beeping with the weather bulletin's, Trenton came running into the kitchen where I was and started freaking out. Normally, storms dont really phase him. He will ask a few questions about what the bulletin means, and which is worse, a tornado warning or tornado watch, but he's pretty calm about it. Well this evening, as he was freaking out, I asked him "Trenton, honey, what in the world is the matter with you? It's just a storm buddy... it's just like all over the other one's we have been having. It's okay, just calm down. You know mommy isn't going to let anything happen to you!" And after spilling all of this out to him, he looked at me with the most worried face I believe I have ever seen on his face and said "Mommy, I'm just afraid that the storm might cause a tornado and kill us and you will go to heaven because you are so nice to me and I will just go to hell because of how I acted towards you earlier today about going to the store." When he told me this, my heart just fell to the floor for the little guy! I really truly felt so sorry or him and his little heart! But in order to make him feel better about it, I told him that if that was how he truly felt, then he should go pray about it and ask for forgiveness from God. And after telling him this, he said "really? i am right now!" and took off to his bedroom and prayed! And when he was finished, he came out and was at such ease and calmed down and back to my sweet little Trenton again!
And now for the 2nd story.... Trenton was staying with mom a few days ago, and the exact same thing happened with him and her as it did with me and him. Mom wanted to go to the store, and Trenton just wasn't going to have it. Although mom didn't back down and he was forced to go.... once they got back to her house, she decided that he was going to go outside and finish mowing the backyard, and as she told him this, he got extremely upset. When she asked him what was the matter, he explained to her that he was afraid for her to go mow because he was afraid that something would happen to the lawn mower and make her get hurt and make her die because of how he had acted earlier. Of course Nana didn't go mow, and talked to Trenton about it and got his nerves calmed but when she told me about it, I felt so bad for him again! I'm not sure what is going on with him making him think things like this are going to happen to the people he love? The only things I can think of is possibly he is at the age to where he realizes that it can happen... especially with his uncle d passing away this year whom he was extremely close to. And possibly because it seems like in the past, every day that he has had a moment to where he was acting ugly, he always ends up getting hurt those days. Whether it be stubbing his big toe, falling down while running, or whatever else you can imagine that happens to kids in every day life. And when these things happen and he gets frustrated from getting hurt, I had started bringing it to his attention that when he acts ugly we always have bad luck with intentions of making him stop and think before acting out. Maybe I brought it too his attention a little too well? I never had intentions of him getting anxiety over something happening to someone! Hopefully we can get this fear straightened out pretty soon because it really makes me feel bad for him! But, ever since these two days of being scared, he has been nothing but perfect! Don't get me wrong, Trenton is a very well behaved little boy and is very caring and considerate of others, but he is also your typical 8 yr old. He is going to have his days that aren't good just like the rest of us... he is just little more open to crying and letting it out compared to me who tends to think I should hold most of my stuff in.
Finally!!!! In a few days we will be taking our first family vacation! We are heading to Florida and I can not wait to sit on the beach and let every worry and stress free my mind while I have my toes in the sand, and watching Trenton smiling from ear to ear with excitement over being at the ocean! He loves the ocean! He is definitely like his mommy when it comes to loving to take trips and loving water!! And of course, like
So, with that being said, I am going to end this one so I don't go into all of the piled on emotions I still have dealing with my brother's death and get myself so worked up, that I won't even be able to sleep tonight... Guaranteed to be a major update with pics when we get back from our trip!!
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